You know I see you
In another light
Where did the days go
When it all felt right
And all I know is there was fire in the room
It got cold too soon
Listen to the rain
And it doesn't sound the same
And it was fun fun fun
The silence in your role
We're not talking anymore
We better run run run
The way you repeat any opportunity until I come undone
It's the sound of our hearts getting louder beating like a hollow drum
Like a hollow hollow hollow drum
Like a hollow hollow hollow drum
So hold your tongue
You can't look me in the eyes
You won't remember
You won't even try
And all I knew is there was fire in the room
It got cold too soon
Listen to the rain
And it doesn't sound the same
And it was fun fun fun
The silence in your role
We're not talking anymore
We better run run run
The way you repeat any opportunity until I come undone
It's the sound of our hearts getting louder beating like a hollow drum
Like a hollow hollow hollow drum
Like a hollow hollow hollow drum
And it doesn't sound the same
And it was fun fun fun
The silence in your role
We're not talking anymore
We better run run run
The way you repeat any opportunity until I come undone
It's the sound of our hearts getting louder beating like a hollow drum
Like a hollow hollow hollow drum
Like a hollow hollow hollow drum
It's the sound of our hearts getting louder beating like a hollow drum
Like a hollow hollow hollow drum
Like a hollow hollow hollow drum
Like a hollow hollow hollow drum
Like a hollow hollow hollow drum
Why is that? Why do fantastic things get up in front of our faces just to be pulled away?
I'm not going to bore you with the whole story. Mostly because it no longer matters at all. I was so excited to find the perfect song to tell all the people all about The Great Pretender ... who's name has changed more than once. At this point this is defiantly the most fitting. He had everyone fooled. He said all the right things at the right times. But he turned out to be no better than He Who Shall Not Be Named. He was an actor, with great talent. He could have been famous and made millions. Alright maybe that's a little far. Anyway, The fact is that he I spend about 8 weeks living in the clouds forgetting what it would be like when I fall back down to earth. I should have known better. I there is always a fall. I woke up. From the most blissful sleep I woke up... People say to live your dreams, but what some people don't seam to understand is that nightmares are dreams too... you were my dream. This is my nightmare. The ache is my nightmare. People will ask how I am, random people making small talk at work or at the store 'hey how are you today?' My response is always the same "Livin' the dream." Because that's what I'm doing, I'm living my nightmare. That's something I wrote. That's the way I think. I always find a way for my nightmares to get the better of me. This is something I found... no name on it but I feel like it apply's
From the book I'll never write
Please Don’t fall in love with me~
I’ll write about the way your collarbone curves and the way your lip trembles when you’re upset. I’ll focus more on the way you twiddle your thumbs counter clockwise rather than the words slipping from your mouth. I’ll remember your favorite song and listen to it on repeat until the lyrics are engraved into the crevasses of my brain. But I’ll forget why prefer coffee over tea.
Please don’t fall in love with me. Because once you realize I’m not good enough I’ll write about you until my palms bleed and my bones begin to ache to serve as a reminder that I should’ve focused more on the feeling I got when you held me rather than how many God damn freckles you had on your arms. I should’ve woken you up to a cup of fresh coffee not tea
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Not that he fall in love with me. I know what because if he had he would have had the balls to tell me to my face that he didn't want to be with me anymore. I wouldn't have woken up to a text massage on a Sunday morning telling me that he can do better then me. OK so that's not what it said, but I want you to tell that that's not what it meant when it said "We both deserve better" ... Maybe it's just my opinion but I think that is the nicest way anyone can say 'I deserve better then you'. There naturally is more to the story. The Great and the Bad parts. But at the end of the day I haven't moved to Indiana yet and I've got no plans to do I'm handing it better then expected.
Maybe that's all for today
Maybe I'll write more when I can't sleep tonight
Have Faith
K*
