Laying down on the bathroom floor
My loneliness was a rattle in the windows
You said you don't want me anymore
And you left me
Standing on a corner crying,
Feeling like a fool for trying
I don't even remember
Why I'm wasting all these tears on you
I wish I could erase our memory
'Cause you didn't give a damn about me
Oh, finally I'm through
Wasting all these tears on you
These tears on you
You ain't worth another sleepless night
And I'll do everything I gotta do to get you off my mind
'Cause what you wanted I couldn't give
What you did, boy, I'll never forget
And you left me
Standing on a corner crying
Feeling like a fool for trying
I don't even remember
Why I'm wasting all these tears on you
I wish I could erase our memory
'Cause you didn't give a damn about me
Oh, finally I'm through
Wasting all these tears on you
These tears on you
And you left me
Standing on a corner crying
Feeling like a fool for trying
I don't even remember
Why I'm wasting all these tears on you
I wish I could erase our memory
'Cause you didn't give a damn about me
Oh, finally I'm through
Wasting all these tears on you
Oh, oh, these tears on you
I tried to find you at the bottom of a bottle
Laying down on the bathroom floor
I know what your thinking. No I haven't had a boyfriend in the few months that I've been MIA. But the song applies anyway. But I thinking I'm more talking to my self. Sometimes I am working so hard to make everyone else happy I forget that I am suppose to make myself happy first. That's my new thing. Be happy. I have come to the conclusion that I may need some help with that. So now that I have Health Insurance I am going to talk to someone. If only just to talk to once a week. Most of the time I love my life but on my off day man they are bad. I have started telling people that I'm in the dark place. To BF#3 and The Irishman I call it Dark and Twisty. He really hates it when I call it that. And the darkness comes out of now where. I had such a great day. I only worked Dinner all my tables were really nice they all tipped good if not better then good. I talked the Mechanic into changing my tale-light cover thing this weekend. So I won't have to figure out to how to do that. We have a big big weekend coming up and next week I have lots of Banquets. My Life is good. I got home from work sat down on the couch with my book and only made it thought like 4 chapters before it was like pulling teeth to keep going. I know what your thinking. Its a good book. I like the author. I just have no want to read. I want nothing more then to lay in my bed watching re-runs of prime time t.v. on my Roku. Who does that?? Anyway I'm going to talk to someone. It needs to be done. When I was living at My Home Away From I saw The Pastor and it helped my nightmares some and even if just that Happened I'd be ok with it. Maybe I'll go for a run seeming that I can't sleep. Anyway Just wanted everyone to know that I'm still alive and will be hopefully posting more. Sorry I disappeared. I'll try not to do it again.
Have Faith
Be Happy
K*
Have Faith
Be Happy
K*
