Clean ~Taylor Swift

The drought was the very worst
When the flowers that we'd grown together died of thirst
It was months and months of back-and-forth
You still all over me like a wine-stained dress I can't wear anymore
Hum ahead as I lost the war
And the sky turned black like a perfect storm

Rain came pouring down
When I was drowning, that's when I could finally breathe
And by morning, gone was any trace of you
And I think I am finally clean


There was nothing left to do
When the butterflies turned to dust, they covered my whole room
So I punched a hole in the roof
Let the flood carry away all my pictures of you
The water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud
But no one heard a thing

Rain came pouring down
When I was drowning, that's when I could finally breathe
And by morning, gone was any trace of you
And I think I am finally clean

Ten months sober, I must admit
Just because you clean don't mean you don't miss it
Ten months older, I won't give in
Now that I'm clean, I'm never gonna risk it
The drought was the very worst
When the flowers that we'd grown together died of thirst

Rain came pouring down
When I was drowning, that's when I could finally breathe
And by morning, gone was any trace of you
And I think I am finally clean

Rain came pouring down
When I was drowning, that's when I could finally breathe
And by morning, gone was any trace of you
And I think I am finally clean

We all have bad days... So are more Frequent then others but everone has them.  To day stated good but got less so... Enought of this ...

I Really just wanted to tell you that on tuesday my sister took her Foster Family and turned it into a Forever Family :)  Great day to be a member of my family thats for sure.

Lets talk about the guy... Because there's always a guy.  Anyone Remeber Mr.NiceGuy??  Yeah that guy this year we got a new snow removal crew that do a great job... Mr.NiceGuy is on the crew.  So with all the snow we've been getting I've been seeing him alot.  Why you might ask becasue I work a lot.  Such is my life.  His boss knows I kinda sorta like him.  I mean apparently I don't have to poker face I thought I had when it comes to him.  Or maybe he's just really good at reading me ... Who know? Anyway so The Boss (Not my boss HIS boss) Gives me a really hard time about that for whatever reason.  So tonight I had dinner at My Bar

and who comes in but Mr.NiceGuy, His Dad and The Boss (stay with me here not my boss his boss)  So I'm sitting across the bar with The Regular (thats his name now) we're eating and chatting and it lovely then comes in the Trio Mr.NiceGuy sits in my life of sight so I pull my hair out of my pony tail to hide behind it because that's any normal 28 year old girl will do when she is a CHICKEN!!  But The Regular catches me blushing and calls me out on it.  The he claims hes going to go all match maker (His name may change it he does what he says hes going to) anyway I left before he could turn me beet red forever.  We'll see what happeneds 

Anyway BF#3 and I are venturing South early Saturday morning and I 1,000 things to be before I can leave andd I work tomorrow so  I guess I'll leave you here...

Have Faith 

K*

Wasting All These Tears~ Cassadee Pope

I tried to find you at the bottom of a bottle
Laying down on the bathroom floor
My loneliness was a rattle in the windows
You said you don't want me anymore

And you left me
Standing on a corner crying,
Feeling like a fool for trying
I don't even remember
Why I'm wasting all these tears on you
I wish I could erase our memory
'Cause you didn't give a damn about me
Oh, finally I'm through
Wasting all these tears on you
These tears on you

You ain't worth another sleepless night
And I'll do everything I gotta do to get you off my mind
'Cause what you wanted I couldn't give
What you did, boy, I'll never forget

And you left me
Standing on a corner crying
Feeling like a fool for trying
I don't even remember
Why I'm wasting all these tears on you
I wish I could erase our memory
'Cause you didn't give a damn about me
Oh, finally I'm through
Wasting all these tears on you
These tears on you

And you left me
Standing on a corner crying
Feeling like a fool for trying
I don't even remember
Why I'm wasting all these tears on you
I wish I could erase our memory
'Cause you didn't give a damn about me
Oh, finally I'm through
Wasting all these tears on you
Oh, oh, these tears on you

I tried to find you at the bottom of a bottle
Laying down on the bathroom floor

I know what your thinking.  No I haven't had a boyfriend in the few months that I've been MIA.  But the song applies anyway.  But I thinking I'm more talking to my self.  Sometimes I am working so hard to make everyone else happy I forget that I am suppose to make myself happy first.  That's my new thing.  Be happy. I have come to the conclusion that I may need some help with that.  So now that I have Health Insurance I am going to talk to someone.  If only just to talk to once a week.  Most of the time I love my life but on my off day man they are bad.  I have started telling people that I'm in the dark place.  To BF#3 and The Irishman I call it Dark and Twisty.  He really hates it when I call it that.  And the darkness comes out of now where.  I had such a great day.  I only worked Dinner all my tables were really nice they all tipped good if not better then good.  I talked the Mechanic into changing my tale-light cover thing this weekend.  So I won't have to figure out to how to do that.  We have a big big weekend coming up and next week I have lots of Banquets.  My Life is good.  I got home from work sat down on the couch with my book and only made it thought like 4 chapters before it was like pulling teeth to keep going.  I know what your thinking.  Its a good book.  I like the author. I just have no want to read.  I want nothing more then to lay in my bed watching re-runs of prime time t.v. on my Roku.  Who does that??  Anyway I'm going to talk to someone.  It needs to be done.  When I was living at My Home Away From I saw The Pastor and it helped my nightmares some and even if just that Happened I'd be ok with it.  Maybe I'll go for a run seeming that I can't sleep.  Anyway Just wanted everyone to know that I'm still alive and will be hopefully posting more.  Sorry I disappeared.  I'll try not to do it again.

Have Faith

Be Happy

K*

Pieces ~ Gary Allan

*if you'r new to the blog :) thanks for reading... keep scrolling past the lyrics and you'll see my update*

I'’ve been broken, torn and scattered
I'’ve loved holy, I'’ve loved sin
I was rolling on the wind
It didn'’t matter

I was so sure of who I didn'’t want to be
Every smile and every fear
Every laugh and every tear
It was all mine, it was all me

Pieces of my heart
Pieces of my soul
Pieces that I’m gonna be
I don’t even know
I gave a lot to lovers
Gave a lot to friends
Everything I took from them
Made me who I am
Pieces

We’'ve all been lied to
We’'ve all been liars
Nothing’s perfect in this world
Everybody’s been burned by the fire
Guess I’m learning
That what breaks you, makes you grow
But I’m not hiding where I'’ve been
Gonna let the light shine in
What I don’t need
Gonna let that, let that, let that go

Pieces of my heart
Pieces of my soul
Pieces that I’m gonna be
I don’t even know
I gave a lot to lovers
Gave a lot to friends
Everything I took from them
Made me who I am
Pieces

Pieces, the good and the bad
Pieces, the happy and sad
Pieces, the wrong and the right
Pieces, that’s my, that’s my, that’s my life

Pieces of my heart
Pieces of my soul
Pieces that I’m gonna be
I don’t even know
I gave a lot to lovers
Gave a lot to friends
Everything I took from them
Made me who I am
Pieces

I went on a Cruise... AGAIN it was AMAZING.  I can't wait for my next one.  Not that I have the money for it right now anyway.  But that is something that I most differently want to do again.  BF#3 and I went.  We met lots of nice people.  We read books and swam in the ocean.  We Shopped.  We drank and ordered room service.  We wrote and watched movies.  We talked and laughed and sang. All and all it was great trip.  Even if we got a letter from Carnival about how sketchy with a map telling us what part of the island to avoid.  We people watched a lot.  Something I love.

We ate dinner with new people every night.  Sometimes the people were great.  We met a guy who was cruising with his mom who works for the collage basketball team in Oklahoma.  How cool it that.  We had dinner with a couple who knew EVERYTHING!!!! Even stuff I 100% know I am right about and they had no clue what they were talking about they were right and I was wrong.  Ask them they'll tell you.  The last night we had ate with a nice couple from South Carolina. He was a Pastor and she was a stay at home mom/ home school teacher for her 4 children.  They reminded me of Sister #2 and B-I-L#2 who were at my house while I was gone.  Sad that I was not here but nice that they got to come home.  Wait... where was I.. oh, right, The people. We saw some people who couldn't read sizes on their clothes didn't fit.  We met a set of brother from Puerto Rico who were really nice and funny.  We saw a lot a group of guy that we called "The Short's"  They were pretty cute and they knew it.  But not in like, the confidence is sexy, but a cocky every girl wants me kinda way that's just annoying.  They (the shorts) were everywhere for a few days there.  Then at the deck dance part we met 'The Socks' (something I'm throwing) They are from Boston.  Ok in all fairness we only met one of them that night.  A group of eight four dudes and four lady's but only one couple.  Really nice people.  We spend the last night with seven of the eight of them in the piano bar.  It was a super time.  We ran in them going to customs and then twice more at the air port.  I am now Facebook friends with seven of the eight of them, and being the nerd that I am, I'm happy about that.

I bought gifts for my family (so if you got one you are family to me)  I killed my cheep $10 watch which almost killed me.

So much happened that I don't know that I could ever tell anything or if I would want to if you would want me to.

All and all it was great.  I can't wait to travel more.  Maybe next time will be shorter I think that might be cheaper :)...


Have Faith

Live Happy

Be You!

K*

I See You ~ Luke Bryan

Roll in the bar, me and my crew

Their little plan to get me over you
They're hookin’ me up, yeah

Buyin’ me drinks with a thousand girls
There's just one thing

I can't go anywhere, I can't do anything

No, I can't close my eyes without you in my dreams

You won't leave me alone, even though I know you're gone
I look around for someone new, but I see you

Jumpin’ up there with the band

Takin’ me by the hand

Hey boy, come dance with me

Stuck like a melody in my head
In the bed of my truck

By the light of the midnight moon

Baby, I see you

Don't know what you did, but you done it good

You don't know how bad that I wish I could

Delete you from my phone, find a girl and take her home
But there's just one thing wrong

I can't go anywhere, I can't do anything

No, I can't close my eyes without you in my dreams

You won't leave me alone, even though I know you're gone
I look around for someone new, but I see you

Jumpin’ up there with the band

Takin’ me by the hand

Hey boy, come dance with me

Stuck like a melody in my head
In the bed of my truck

By the light of the midnight moon

Baby, I see you

Your lips, your eyes

Girl, since you told me goodbye

I can't go anywhere, I can't do anything

No, I can't close my eyes without you in my dreams

You won't leave me alone, even though I know you're gone
I look around for someone new, but I see you

Jumpin’ up there with the band

Takin’ me by the hand

Hey boy, come dance with me

Stuck like a melody in my head
In the bed of my truck

By the light of the midnight moon

Baby, I see you

Baby, I see you
Baby, I see you

It's been a long week...5 Banquets in 4 days ... 4 new tales added right as dinner hour hit on Friday night.  Long is the only word I have night now.   Today I worked from 8-1 flew home and went to see a Play with Mom and Sister #1 then a nap.  Leading to family dinner.  Beer was drank laughs were had.  All and All I wouldn't have ended the week any other way. Tomorrow starts the shortest work week ever.  Day Monday, Split Tuesday, Day Wednesday.  Off Thursday May 1st - Tuesday May 13th... Oh right BF#3 and I are going on a cruise.  CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!! 

Ok SO as always there's this guy right  Mr. Nice Guy.  I met him when we first opened the bar(Funny I say "WE" like I had something to do with it)  So I was working and both of the bars a lot then.  I went something like 47 or 48 days with no full day off.  Gross right.  Ok back to the cute guy.  So this Super cute guy Mr.Nice Guy asks for my number and I gave it to him right no big.  We text some off and on.  Then I start working all these extra day helping out at the other bar right so as always I let something fall through the cracks.  I totally blow him off right.  OK present day so I have him my number again (And when I saw "I" I mean one of the girls that works with me because I am a CHICKEN!!!) So hes like "Why do I want this she'll just blow me off again" UGGG Such is my life I let the good one slip away and cling to the guys that are going to fine it amazing to break my heart!  For realy dude its been like 2 years give me a break... Its whatever I guess... Even after my nap today I'm so drained...

Night all :)

Have Faith
K*

Faith When I Fall ~ Kip Moore

I know it's been a long time since the last time we talked
I know I've been a stranger and that's all my fault
And asking you for anything don't really seem right
But the winds of change are blowing so I'm begging you tonight

Give me love when I ain't got nobody
A little hope when I ain't got none at all
Give me light up ahead on a journey
Give me strength when I'm standing
And faith when I fall

I know the rain is coming and it's sure gonna pour
I know there ain't no running from this kind of storm
It's gonna get harder and harder, they keep on pushing through
I'm gonna wanna quit, so I'll be counting on you

To give me love when I ain't got nobody
A little hope when I ain't got none at all
Give me light up ahead on a journey
Give me strength when I'm standing
And faith when I fall

When the clouds start parting and the sun starts shining through
This time I wont forget, I wont forget about you

Give me love when I ain't got nobody
A little hope when I ain't got none at all
Give me love when I ain't got nobody
A little hope when I ain't got none at all
Give me light up ahead on a journey
Give me strength when I'm standing
And faith when I fall

Give me strength when I'm standing
And faith when I fall, yeah

Hello friends... I Know that i haven't posted in like FOREVER... That happens.   I hope you all still love me.

Here we go.  Saturday (like last week) I saw Kip Moore!  It was super amazing.  The road that let us there was ruff but after we ate let the dog out and went back home to get the tickets that I left on the kitchen counter.  We re-locked the door and headed to The Rave.  It was an super time me and BF#3 always have a good time when we go there.  We will be headed back next mouth to see Chase Rice Brett Elderdge and Billy Currington. I pretty stocked!  When we bought the tickets for Kip I got right on iTunes and bought some new songs.  This was my favorite right from the get go. I just loved it.  I kinda spoke to me.  Anyway... Lets see what else is new in my life...BF#3 and I are going on a cruise in May because well why not?!  We both need to get away.  

 

 I went and got a Tattoo.  I have wanted that for a long time.  When I showed it to people the first thing they ask is "Did it Hurt"  I always want to say "No not at all I love being stuck with a tiny needle over and over again It's my favorite!" OF COURSE it hurt.  I was stuck with a tiny needle over and over again for thirty minutes lets be real about this right now.  But it doesn't hurt now.  And I'm super in love with it so in the end it was totally worth it.  

The Mechanic is changing my oil this week so I made him cookies today... I am also going to share them with BF#3 because she's coming over for dinner tonight.  I have to go do more laundry now it was nice chatting with you :)

Have Faith 

K*