Everyone was an Inner song. Mine changes almost everyday. You never know what it might be, but there is always a meaning behind it.

Friday, June 28, 2013

after the chapel...

This Blog has been posted late by The best sister ever Sister#2 and Brother in-law#2 had headed off to Camp-That Thing 2013 in June with the youth group at their church.

This is my week with the kids My name is Katie... Here's a little Background on me... I am the Banquet Lead/waitress/bartender at a bar/grill/banquet hall in Wisconsin. I lived with Sister#2, Brother in-law#2 and The C’s for a while back in 2011 (maybe you remember me talking about being a house elf ) I moved back to live in my (well and sister #2’s) Hometown in the house I mostly grew up in with my Mom and Dad. yea that's right I'm 27 and I live with my mommy and daddy who do my laundry and cook me dinner. But really they won’t let me pay rent why would I leave. Would you??? Anyway enough about that nonsense this has been my week.

Friday- I worked from Noon until Two AM.
Saturday- I got up at 8:30 packed had coffee and made a 400 some mile trip south to This fine city where my Lovely sister, Brother in Law and 5 Foster Kids live.
Sunday- They leave for That Thing 2013 I then spent the day with the Kids. From we played outsider had lunch took naps played watched veggie-tales had dinner with Friends for the church played outside again took baths and went to bed.
Monday- we got dressed had breakfast went to daycare. I picked everyone up at 5 and we had dinner played read book and went to bed. After fighting we all fell asleep.
Tuesday- Much the same as Monday But we took baths again.
Wednesday- It started out the same as any other day but right at bedtime we had a bad storm roll in and at 7:45 (we go to be at 8) we were headed to the basement for 30 minutes... we hid. At 8:15ish I took the two youngest to bed and left the three oldest with family downstairs. Everyone finally went to bed about 8:45. Needless to say Thursday was LONG.
Thursday- we were all over tired but went much like Tuesday.
Friday-So far its been good the same. I’ll take uneventful. I’m OK with it. So with the kid daycare all day long I did have time to see my friends watch some TV and eat out A LOT. once again I’m OK with it. They come home tonight … I’m so sleeping in tomorrow. (Well I hope anyway)

The whole point to me hijacking this blog is that I wanted to say that my sister has 5 kids. 5 KIDS. I don’t know how they do this. Even with 2 people here all the time (which there is not mind you) I feel like all I have done is count head. I,2,3,4,5. 5,4,3,2,1. There are all here. Outside or inside its easy to lose kids. Don’t misunderstand not really lose they I took all 5 to daycare this morning. But lets be straight up and for serious about this. When was the last time you went from being up all night watching TV or drinking or working or whatever it is you do when you stay up all night to having 5 kids. Not that They stayed up all night or anything … I think I got sidetracked here so I’ll just say this. I am very proud of my Sister and Brother in law for what they do with these kids. I feel very blessed to have them (all 7 of them) in my family now and forever no matter what happens. I love them all. Its hard to have 5 kids and I think They are doing a pretty good job if I do say so myself.

I found this quote today I don’t know said it first but I liked it a lot... Disappointment is just God's way of saying "I've got something better ... Be patient, live life, have faith”


K*

Monday, June 24, 2013

This Little Light Of Mine

This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine.
This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine, let it shine, let it shine, let it shine.

Won't let Satan blow it out.
I'm gonna let it shine.
Won't let Satan blow it out.
I'm gonna let it shine, let it shine, let it shine, let it shine.

Let it shine til Jesus comes.
I'm gonna let it shine.
Let it shine til Jesus comes.
I'm gonna let it shine, let it shine, let it shine, let it shine.

Hide it under a bushel - NO!
I'm gonna let it shine.
Hide it under a bushel - NO!
I'm gonna let it shine, Let it shine, let it shine, let it shine.

Let it shine over the whole wide world,
I'm gonna let it shine.
Let it shine over the whole wide world,
I'm gonna let it shine, let it shine, let it shine, let it shine.


I know what your thinking... Really like the song from Sunday school when I was like 3 or 4 ... That's right ... I am in Jasper My home away from home currently sitting on the floor between two bedroom... The C's and the super heroes One where I can hear a brother and sister reading the books like chicka chicka boom boom (on of the best books ever)  and something about dragons loving tacos (never heard of that one until yesterday)  and the little C sleeping with his nuk in his mouth happy as can be... And the super heroes (not what sister #2 calls them but that what I'm going with now)  The Hulk (also known as Boots) and IronMan (also known as Steel) IronMan for some reason thinks its a great idea to climb out of his bed into The Hulks... I don't love this idea mostly because then The Hulk is awake and SCREAMING because nobody likes The Hulk when his is angry so instead of checking on them and finding out that I am NOT winning like last night I have planned myself in front of the door way with Sister#2 Laptop ... 

Wait lets back up 


Like a month a go Sister #2 calls me and says "hey did you want to come to Jasper and like with my kids and my dog for a week when I take my high school youth group to camp this summer?  Cause that'd be super"  How does one say no to that.  I have no idea so here I am.  I worked for like noon to almost bar-time one Friday ... Went home slept from 3 or 4 ish until 8:30 drank coffee packed cleaned out my car and hit the road 31 minutes after planned.  Filled up my gas tank and stared the long trip to my second home for 9 days.  when I got here I got 5 super great hugs from 5 super great kids... We watched Finding Nemo read a book and headed to bed.  Well the kids did Sister and I went to The Wal-Mart.  Did some shopping and came home to sit on the porch sing.  The we started to watch Grey's Anatomy my new subsection something I blame Sister #1 and BF#3 for.  Then they went to be I did "shortly" after they did.  They left Sunday morning at 8ish.  Me and 5 kids but hey I got this I just count heads ALOT.  day 1 will be the hardest I think Sunday we played outside twice we watched some Veggietales we ate snacks lunch and dinner and had baths some members of the church family came by to help me but I was alone most of the day with 5 (count them 5) kids.  Turns out I'm SUPER AMAZING and really had no problems.  This morning I woke up at 6:30 ( 5:30 where I live) and had everyone fed and all but one dressed before my help got here.  I have done dishes and swept the floor changed dipper after dipper.  Maybe you didn't already know this about me but I always have music in my head and I like to sing (even if I do it badly)  So with 5 small children runny around I can't sing Mumford and sons and as much as I love Gary Allan I don't know if some of those songs are the best either so I keep coming back to the same some  as seen above.  Big C singes it with me (which I LOVE) she has more the most part been a big help to be.

My Butt is now asleep ... 4 of my 5 kids are now asleep and I think that last one is about to give in ... BUT I can now get off this floor look for more posts about this week in Jasper 

Have Faith


K*

Saturday, June 15, 2013

Barton Hollow ~ The Civil Wars

I'm a dead man walking here
But that's the least of all my fears
Ooh, underneath the water

It's not Alabama clay
That gives my trembling hands away
Please forgive me father

Ain't going back to Barton Hollow
Devil gonna follow me e'er I go
Won't do me no good washing in the river
Can't no preacher man save my soul

Did that full moon force my hand?
Or that un marked hundred grand?
Ooh, underneath the water
Please forgive me father

Miles and miles in my bare feet
Still can't lay me down to sleep
If I die before I wake
I know the Lord my soul won't take

I'm a dead man walking
I'm a dead man walking

Keep walking and running and running for miles
Keep walking and running and running for miles
Keep walking and running and running for miles

Ain't going back to Barton Hollow
Devil gonna follow me e'er I go
Won't do me no good washing in the river
Can't no preacher man save my soul



Sometimes things don't make since... Like when you don't talk to someone for months but when you do start talking again its like you talked everyday... doesn't make since...
Or even if you do talk to someone everyday and they still don't know you as well as other people do...

People lie... 
I lie to people... for real I do that... I'm not proud of that but somethings are better to be kept between you and your self.  I have things in my life that I don't want anyone to know about. but is hiding things the same as lying ... that is the real thing here.  Maybe what I do is not lie but I hide things... 

I don't have much to say tonight... nothing has changed, but I'm ok with that... I think ... The nightmares are bad and getting worse ... but not every night like it sometimes is so I'll take it I'm going to Jasper a week from tomorrow which is fun ... guess thats all ... 

I do however really love this song!

Have faith 
K*

Sunday, June 9, 2013

I Think I've Had Enough ~Gary Allan

All the days that ended well into tomorrow
All the times I couldn't lay it on the line
This old conscience that I could never follow
I hate to say it but I wish it wasn't mine

All the broken hearts that didn't see it comin’
All the tears that should have never hit the floor
All the lookin’ back but mainly all the runnin’
All these reasons I’m standing at your door

I think I've had enough
This time I’m givin’ in
Without you it’s too rough
So I’m standing here again
I finally realize
It’s love that never dies
And I’m really not that tough
No I’m really not that tough
I think I've had enough

Life is gonna be a circus
Rain or shine
Rides did always make me nervous
So if I’m gonna ride the Ferris wheel I’ll need your hand in mine

I've think I've had enough
This time I’m giving in
Without you it’s too rough
So I’m crawling back again
I've finally realize
It’s love that never dies
And I’m really not that tough
No I’m really not that tough
I think I've had enough
I’m really not that tough
I think I've had enough
Think I've had enough


... Strange things happen in my life

When I find myself having a bad day like most people I will post a thing or two on Facebook or Twitter... The Champ would then send me flower ... well he did once ... Beautiful yellow Tulips it was nice of him but unnecessary.  I did not post those things to get flowers.  It was more just that I wanted someone other then me to know what was going on in my life.  At this point I have blocked The Champ from my Facebook page.  I want every much to be his friend... As much as I want that I think we may need a little space for that to happen because he had or may still have stronger feelings for me then I had for him (I don't know because he tells me one thing and The Coach another) 

May 11 was Mothers day weekend... My southern family came up ... We went to My favorite watering hole in town... My sisters are (for lack of a better word) lame and went home long before I did.  So sitting at my favorite table in my favorite bar with BF#3 when I ran into someone I haven't seen in YEARS (or at least one) someone who is five years older then I am.  Someone I have known since I was like 12.  Someone I had a great big crush on (but really who didn't have a crush on their older sister or brother's friends)  We talked, he told me about his son and that he is was single... we talk, about the bar and banquet hall where I work and that I was also single.  We exchanged phone numbers.  We have hung out twice and and talk everyday if only a "Hi, how's your day going"  It new and nice and I am really enjoying it.  The Irishman named him Mr. Smitten so I guess that's what I'll call him.  One of the girls that works with me is from town and knows Mr.Smitten as well.  When Sport (her nickname) was asked about him (because working in a bar is like high school all over again so everyone has to know everything about everybody)  Her response was that he was a stand up kinda guy who would treat me right... Not only was I standing there when she said that but everyone at the bar told me she said that too...

In February BF#3 and I went to The Rave to see Gary Allan (who we both love)  In April we added to the Group to head back to The Rave to see Randy Houser (who is up and coming a put on a great show)...  In August BF#3 and I are headed to the State Fair to see Both of them together... I cant wait
I have found that living 7 hours away from your best guy friend leaves an opening in your life for a new best guy friend... enter The Irishman.  We talk on the phone a lot and text some.  Hes a good "not" friend and the best part is he doesn't have the 'I'll be really nice to her and then get in her pants' kinda thing going on.  He is just there to listen to me.  As this point I feel like I could tell him anything and he would not judge me.  I need that in my life... sometimes it nice to get a guys point of view that is not A- your dad or brother-in-law or B someone trying to sleep with you.  It helps that he doesn't sugar coat things so I know what he really thinks about thinks. 

I'm trying to get a life ... Hanging out with Mr.Smitten and Tuesday dinners with BF#3 and I'm now playing volleyball Thursday nights.  Having a life is helping me stay positive and happy.  I always have something to look forward to I am slowly but surely finishing my book... and reading lots as I go.  Life is better lately then it has been is while.  I'm happy all the time.  I can't stop smiling... my life is good and I honestly think that even if all the good went away again I could find a way to get it all back ... I'm happy and loving life...

Well its nightie time ...
Have Faith


K*