How Country Feels ~ Randy Houser

You were raised on an asphalt farm
Ain't never heard a rooster crow
Never walked barefoot by a river
Felt the mud up between your toes

You never rolled in the hay
You never thrown it in four wheel
Climb up on here girl
Let me show you how country feels

Let your hair down, hair down
Get you some of this laid on back
Kick your shoes off, kick 'em off
Get you some of this slow down fast
I'll take you up and down these hollers and hills
Let me show you how country feels

You ever watched the sun go down
From the bed of a pickup truck
Ever been so into somebody
You're still lying there when it comes back up

Girl what do you say?
Cut a path through that cornfield
Park down by the water
Let me show you how country feels

Let your hair down, hair down
Get you some of this laid on back
Kick your shoes off, kick 'em off
Get you some of this slow down fast
I'll take you up and down these hollers and hills
Let me show you how country feels

Let your hair down
Get you some of this laid on back
Kick your shoes off (Kick your shoes off)

Let your hair down, hair down
Get you some of this laid on back
Kick your shoes off, kick 'em off
Get you some of this slow down fast
I'll take you up and down these hollers and hills
Let me show you how country feels
Country feels

Not much to report but I was in a posting mood while I added songs to my iPhone that BF#3 gave me tonight at dinner... I am seeing Randy this weekend with BF#3 and the midget ... can't wait!!!

The three of us will look this kind of amazing!!!  

So far the week has gone normal ... I worked yesterday then had dinner with the family then went back and closed the bar with my BBG BFF and Mr Bigglesworth.  Normal.  Then instead of drinking I went to the gym.  Knee high socks and all.  did like an hour.  Went home and could not sleep ... it was like what the hell... I talked to the Irishman for a bit who a shured  me that I am not going to be kidnapped from the BBG and if I am to fight dirty.  LOL  That's pretty much it... how lame and boring... 

once again Happy Post!!! 

Have Faith

K*

I Hope You Find It ~ Miley Cyrus

These clouds aren't going nowhere, baby
Rain keeps coming down
I just thought I'd try to call you, baby
For you got too far outta town
And I hope that you get this message that I'm leaving for you
'Cause I hate that you left without hearing the words that I needed you to

And I hope you find it,
What you're looking for
And I hope it's everything you dreamed your life could be
And so much more

And I hope you're happy, wherever you are
I wanted you to know that
And nothing's gonna change that
And I hope you find it

Am I supposed to hang around and wait forever?
Last words that I said
But that was nothing but a broken heart talkin', baby
You know that wasn't what I meant
Call me up, let me know that you got this message that I'm leaving for you
'Cause I hate that you left without hearing the words that I needed you to

And I hope you find it,
What you're looking for
And I hope it's everything you dreamed your life could be
And so much more

And I hope you're happy, wherever you are
I wanted you to know that
And nothing's gonna change that
And I hope you find it
Whatever it is out there that you were missing here

And I hope you find it,
What you're looking for
And I hope it's everything you dreamed your life could be
And so much more

And I hope you're happy wherever you are
I wanted you to know that
And nothing's gonna change that
No, no, no
And I hope you find it
I hope you find it
Mmm,
Ooh.

Strange things happen in my life...

Sometimes you drive to Jasper in the rain ... it happens ... sometimes your having a super great time but just can't sleep so you sleep through breakfast plans with The Champ and you feel super bad... he then tells you its not a big deal ... but is lying and you know that because The Coach told you so...  LYING is a problem ... 

Sometimes you will work open to close on Wednesday ... ok not sometimes but every week by choice you will work open to close on Wednesday... 

Yesterday was the last night for our bowling league.  By "our" I mean the bowling league that would come in  to the bar every week after they got done bowling.  They were my favorite. Some other friends came in too. Last night was fun in my world.  I got to hang out with k-9 and his cute girl friend...  The Irishman came in and stayed until we locked the doors.  Then him and I sat in my car for about 2 hours talking about life and work and our ex's and how they changed us.  How different life turned out to be.  

I am honestly posting this because I have been posting lots of sad stuff lately and wanted the world to know that I have may have been having a hard time but I gained a new friend out of it so to me that makes it all worth it ... and no matter what the glass is still have full.  
I will find the thing that makes me happy.  The thing that I was put on earth to have.  I have also figured out that if I am meant to have a "love of my life" I he will find me and I should stop looking :) 

Happy Post!!

Have Faith

K*

 Me and Lead 2 Wednesday night with Chevy in the back ground!!

Dancing Away With My Heart~ Lady Antebellum

I finally asked you to dance on the last slow song
Beneath that moon that was really a disco ball
I can still feel my head on your shoulder
And hoping that song would never be over

I haven't seen you in ages
Sometimes I find myself wondering where you are
For me you'll always be eighteen and beautiful
And dancing away with my heart

I brushed your curls back so I could see your eyes
And the way you moved me was like you were reading my mind
I can still feel you lean in to kiss me
I can't help but wonder if you ever miss me

I haven't seen you in ages
Sometimes I find myself wondering where you are
For me you'll always be eighteen and beautiful
And dancing away with my heart

You headed off to college at the end of that summer
And we lost touch
I guess I didn't realize even at the moment we lost so much

I haven't seen you in ages
Sometimes I find myself wondering where you are
For me you'll always be eighteen and beautiful
And dancing away with my heart

Nah nah nah nah (x3)

Away with my heart

Nah nah nah nah (x3)

...

Today is a day like any other Tuesday ... I slept in I cleaned up my room I had lunch with my mom.  I started thinking about my weekend.  I finished my book.  I got my nails done and went to library   I ran to wal-mart.  I had dinner with BF#3.  But tonight we went to Brothers for a beer with one of the bouncers because it's his birthday.  We hung out with 3 of my favorite bodyguards (that's what I call the bouncers at Brothers)  One of them had been married 2 different times... and is never getting married again.  He was giving out free advice.  It made me open about stuff I don't talk about.  Now mind you the beer and shots didn't help me keep my mouth closed at all. (one beer and two shots yes I'm a light weight.)  I wasn't too drunk to drive by any means but I talk a lot when I start drinking.  It doesn't help that Thursday is He who shall not be named's birthday.  Lets just say he's been on my mind a lot this week.(or the past week).  

Strange things happen in my life... I have nightmares about being kidnapped.  I have nightmares period.  One I can't always wake up from. So I don't sleep well.  I take melatonin to help me sleep as long as I can get 8 hours of sleep.  It helped for a while.  Now I am back to having nightmares but because of the melatonin I can't ever wake myself up.

I am angry about everything and nothing all at the same time... I cry a lot... I am sad all the time.  But I put on a brave face. That my dears is why I work so much, why I pull away from everyone and everything.  I run from things that could hurt me.  I've been hurt I don't wanna do it again.  I am afraid all the time.  At this point I only trust about 3 people who are not blood related to me.  I can't bring myself to do it.  People hurt other people.  People are mean and nasty.  People just plain suck...

Tonight after bring up old memory's I wrote this post knowing that I need to pack my suitcase for my much needed weekend away with my sister.  Sometimes I just needed to say these things out loud to someone anyone and just pray that it helps me.  Maybe now that i have said these things I will sleep soundly and dreamlessly.  I will not go upstairs and pack before going to sleep.  I am working open to close tomorrow.  It will be a good distraction from all the crazy thoughts in my head...  

Have Faith

K*

Dancing away with my heart...

Like its a Bad thing ~Gary Allan

They say, I drive a little fast
Say, I like to push the limit
Everyday I'm living like it was my last
They say, Im proud of my scars
Each one tells a story
Got guts and glory down to an art
Say, I know whats its like
To see life pass right before my eyes
Like it's a bad thing.

I dont know about you but I was put here to live and love
So, what if I dont do it like everybody else does
I'm out on the edge, I'm too willing to risk
Every bone, every breath, they say, all I am is a crazy dream
Like it's a bad thing.

So, my heart's been broke
So, I keep on falling
Im nothing but all in when I let go
I wear it on my sleeve
Yeah, they call me a fool cause I still believe
Like it's a bad thing.

I dont know about you but I was put here to live and love
So, what if I dont do it like everybody else does
I'm out on the edge, I'm too willing to risk
Every bone, every breath, they say, all I am is a crazy dream
Like it's a bad thing.
I dont know about you but I was put here to live and love
So, what if I dont do it like everybody else does
I'm out on the edge, I'm too willing to risk
Every bone, every breath, they say, all I am is a crazy dream
Like it's a bad thing.

Like it's a bad thing

...

Sometimes strange things happen in my life...

Somethings people you trust lie to you about things because they don't want to hurt you...  The little sister I never had will now be call my x-bestie

Sometimes people lead you to believe things that may or may not be true... and I don't say that like I do sometimes when I really know whats going on and I am trying to be cheeky about it... The Irishman is just confusing... or maybe its just our friends are confusing ... yea that's it be has been straight with me... 

Sometimes people build you a bar in 4 days... The CBE built a new bar in the banquet hall ... ITS SO PRETTY!!!

Sometimes people have your back that you don't think will... my work family has surprised me the last two weeks

Sometimes people need you stop treating me like a door mat... but I guess that's my fault too...

Next week (4 Days) I will be headed south to see my family.  I am looking very forward to seeing sister #2 brother in law #2 and the Irish twins.  I sometimes wish I wasn't 7 hours away from my sister.  I honestly sometimes think about finding a job half way between my two family's and and making a family.  so within 3 and 1/2 hours I could be with either of them that may need me. I'm a waitress/ bartender after all I can do that anywhere right... but I love it here and I don't know if I could/would want to get two far from stall town USA.  

BF# 3 and I saw Gary Allan together... IT WAS AMAZING now we are planning a trip back to The Rave to see Randy Houser.  I'm, pretty physicked.  We added two more to the group this time... T and one of T's friends...

St. Patrick's day was like another big drinking day at my bar... I got dolled up and posed for photos with the prettiest girl I know... The took another one with my BBG BFF and the bouncers seen below.  The night before Easter was a Hen night with some of the Kwik trip girls ... needless to say my head hurt for dinner the next day... after a nap I stole my favorite 8 year old and went to see The Croods in 3D.  This week after 100 hours (not really but you know what i am) I went to see Jurassic Park in 3D pretty sweet if I do say so... Its getting late and I work all day tomorrow because it's Monday...

Have Faith...

K*