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I am a girl without a song ... Ok I have songs in my head ... Inner songs with no ends ... But today is not about an inner song ... The words in my head that help me get through the day ... Today I made a long trip with mom and dad to say good bye to a beloved uncle ... the funeral is tomorrow it's going to be a long tough day. The memory's my family and myself have created are amazing and I would not trade a single minute of any of for all the tea in china (maybe there's a lot of tea in china) my message is short tonight and sad but please understand that my beloved uncle is one of the kindest people to grace the earth ( that I remember and have met) I will miss him but celebrate him because he is home now with his lord and creator... Rest in peace beloved uncle ... Until we meet again



Have faith

K*

Long Live~ Taylor Swift

I said remember this moment, in the back of my mind
The time we stood with our shaking hands
The crowds in the stands went wild
We were the Kings and the Queens
And they read off our names
The night you danced like you knew our lives
Would never be the same
You held your head like a hero
On a history book page
It was the end of a decade
But the start of an age

Long live the walls we crashed through
All the kingdom lights shined just for me and you
I was screaming long live all the magic we made
And bring on all the pretenders
One day, we will be remembered

I said remember this feeling
I passed the pictures around
Of all the years that we stood there
On the side-lines wishing for right now
We are the Kings and the Queens
You traded your baseball cap for a crown
When they gave us our trophies
And we held them up for our town
And the cynics were outraged
Screaming "this is absurd"
Cause for a moment a band of thieves
In ripped up jeans got to rule the world

Long live the walls we crashed through
All the kingdom lights shined just for me and you
I was screaming long live all the magic we made
And bring on all the pretenders
I'm not afraid
Long live all the mountains we moved
I had the time of my life fighting dragons with you
I was screaming long live that look on your face
And bring on all the pretenders
One day, we will be remembered

Hold on to spinning around
Confetti falls to the ground
May these memories break our fall

Will you take a moment, promise me this
That you'll stand by me forever
But if God forbid fate should step in
And force us into a goodbye
If you have children some day
When they point to the pictures
Please tell them my name
Tell them how the crowds went wild
Tell them how I hope they shine

Long live the walls we crashed through
I had the time of my life, with you
Long, long live the walls we crashed through
All the kingdom lights shined just for me and you
I was screaming long live all the magic we made
And bring on all the pretenders
I'm not afraid
Singing, long live all the mountains we moved
I had the time of my life fighting dragons with you
And long, long live that look on your face
And bring on all the pretenders
One day, we will be remembered

Its been a long and expensive month for this little girl... First the car ... Then why crap cell phone died ... so I after two hours and LOTS of tears I got a brand new iPhone 4s its pretty sweet I can't lie I love it.  Then there was a car insurance issue.  I also lost a beloved Uncle on my Mama's side of the family.  Ive never been one to handle death well.  My Week went like this Monday was normal ... worked and went out for Monday Fun-Day.  Close to normal ... slept in and because Mama was off we cleaned together then I had dinner with Best Friend #3.  Wednesday was the night before Thanksgiving.  In my small town Wisconsin it is the BIGGEST drinking night of the year.  We had 6 bartenders and Me running around when the drinking started.  I had trays of shots.  It was super fun.  The CBE has this thing he does where at the pike of the night he will put one or two of his bartenders up on the bar and we or they pour booze into your mouth to the song Shots by LMFAO of course.  Being the shot girl I poured shots that night.  I can't lie it was pretty fun.  I had Caption America ask for my phone number that was fun.  We closed down the bar with no problems which we were all thankful for.  We ate late night pizza and cleaned together.  Then so my work family could start off Thanksgiving the right way I stayed late and set up the space for Thanksgiving to be served the next day.  I got home about 4:30.  Went to sleep and woke up just in time for Turkey and all the trimmings.  It was a blissful day of food football and fun.  Naps were taken and books were read by all. The day could have only been better if Indiana was in Wisconsin not jasper but we all have jobs I understand ... Guess that's all for today ... I have to open tomorrow so I'm off to bed

Have faith

K*
   

A Thousand Years~ Christina Perri

Heartbeats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

Short and Sweet tonight ... saw breaking dawn part two last night ... it was steller I can't lie.  There were twists and turns that I didn't see coming but I loved it.  I am very sad to see the saga be done.  What will I do without Twilight movies coming out???  I know look forward to the Hunger Games.  I only had a 10 hour day today so it not so bad... I am still loving life even on bad days... 

Thats really all I have to say about that

Have Faith

K*

What Might Have Been~ Little Texas

Sure I think about you now and then,
but it's been a long, long time.
I've got a good life now, I've moved on,
so when you cross my mind....


I try not to think about what might have been,
Cause that was then,
and we have taken different roads.
We can't go back again,
there's no use giving in,
and there's no way to know, what might have been.

We can sit and talk about this all night long,
and wonder why we didn't last.
Yes, they might be the best days we will ever know,
but we'll have to leave them in the past.

So try not to think about what might have been,
Cause that was then,
and we have taken different roads.
We can't go back again,
there's no use giving in,
and there's no way to know, what might have been.

The same old look in your eyes,
it's a beautiful night,
I'm so tempted to stay.
But too much time has gone by,
we should just say goodbye,
and turn and walk away.

I try not to think about what might have been,
Cause that was then,
and we have taken different roads.
We can't go back again,
there's no use giving in,
and there's no way to know, what might have been.

No, we'll never know....
What might have been.

I'm freshly home from Best Friend #3's house.  We had birnner again.  I'm a fan.  We are both so busy with work and she's back with her X (who will now be known as Mr.Small Town Guy) The BBG has banquet after banquet planned that we haven't had time to get together.  So tonight we made time.  We needed that.  We talked about The Guy who likes to bowl, and Mr. Small town guy.  We talked about her trip to see her dad.  We talked about Breaking Dawn Part 2 (which we will be seeing Thursday night at 10!!!) We talked about Bride #6 and her new baby.  

We talked about Cats and Dogs and life.  We listened to music.  She is starting to understand my love for a county singer that she has never like.  We talked about He who Shall Not be Named, and who it bugs me so much that he is dating someone new.  The more I have thought about it the more I know its not that I want him back.  He's no longer the man I fell in love with all those years ago. Its more that I don't want him to be happy if I'm not.  But as she pointed out I don't need someone to be happy and I need to love myself before anyone else can love me.  So I thought about that.  At the Wal-Mart.  And on the drive home.  I have come to a decision... I already am happy,  Sure I have bad days but who doesn't really. 

I love who I have grown into. And I don't regret being with him.  Some of the choices I am or may not have made but I know that if it were not for him and everything we went thought I would not be the strong, smart, happy, loving and BEAUTIFUL person I am today( I say beautiful like that because on more then one occasion I question that more then anything else).  I don't need a man to make me happy.  I need my Family and Friends.  So it being November and all with everyone saying what they are thankful for I am Thankful for the important people in my life... and days like today when I can shower and put on clean PJ's (lol)

That's all I wanted today...

Have Faith 

Deuces 

K* 

PS I'm posting some photos that I have...(Don't Freak out BBG BFF I don't have any of us or they would be up... see yo for dinner tomorrow or tonight whenever your reading this {lol})

I Wanna Be Loved Like That ~Shenandoah

Natalie Wood gave her heart to James Dean
High school rebel and a beauty queen
Standing together in an angry world
One boy fighting for one girl

I want to be loved like that
I want to be loved like that
A promise you can't take back
If you're gonna love me
I want to be loved like that

Daddy never gave Mamma a diamond ring
Mamma never worried for anything
What he gave her came from the heart
A bond that was never torn apart

I want to be loved like that
I want to be loved like that
A promise you can't take back
If you're gonna love me
I want to be loved like that

An old man kneeling all alone
Plants his flowers in a garden of stone
For seven years now she's been gone
And his devotion is still going strong

I want to be loved like that
I want to be loved like that
A promise you can't take back
If you're gonna love me
I want to be loved like that

    Lets be for real here who doesn't... I can not tell a lie I want the life my parents.  They have been married forever (32 years)  I can count on one hand how many fights they have had.  Not arguments but real fights.  And on top of that it's always about stuff that is important never about who is going to cook dinner or do the dishes.  They raised 3 beautiful girls that are happy (don't get me wrong we all have our moments of unhappiness but for the most part we are happy :))  I can't lie I want to spend the rest of my life sitting in the same room as the man of my dreams in comfortable silences.   I want to have kids and know that I can always use the "Wait til your father hears about this"  Haha.  We didn't get that much but it was always in the back of our minds.  If I do something stupid what will mom and daddy say? On most things it wasn't worth finding out.  

I want to spend the rest of my life falling asleep in the arms of this one man.  I personally don't believe in Divorce.  Its not an opinion...I got that from my Mama.  I know that for sure. She had a similar life to what I have led.  Was cheated on by her fist love and had to learn to heal.  She helped me a lot.  She is the reason I am as strong of a person as I am.  She taught me that it's ok to cry and that God doesn't give you more then you can handle and even when you wanna give up not to...  On top of teaching me to cook, clean, sew and lots of other things.

I have learned a ton from my Daddy too... to show your love rather then say it.  To work had and pay your own way.  Don't let your pride get in the way of needing help.  Family is the most important in the whole world... On top of teaching me how to milk a cow, bail hay, grew tobacco, and tons of other stuff.   

My Mom and Dad have the love that is spoken about in this song.  I am blessed and THANKFUL for them and everything they have taught me.  For turning me in to the person that I am and showing me how love should be.  The love that I thought I had couldn't hold a candle to what Mom and Dad have.  I have no words to say how grateful I am for everything that they have taught me.  I love my Mom and Dad because they made me who I am.  I and thankful that they showed me love like Natalie and James so I could know what it is that I want to find out of life.

Sappy tonight sorry ... I was feeling it ...
Have Faith
Deuces

K*


PS I heard from the Guy who likes to Bowl... He's now The Funny Guy ...

Alone With You ~Jake Owen

I don't see you laugh
You don't call me back
But you kiss me when you're drunk
I don't know your friends
Don't know where you've been
Why are you the one I want

Don't put your lips up to my mouth and tell me you can't stay
Don't slip your hand under my shirt and tell me it's okay
Don't say it doesn't mater cause it's gonna matter to me
I can't be alone with
You've got me out on the edge every time you call
And i know it would kill me if I fall
i can't be alone with you

Please don't chain that door
I can't win this war
Your body's like a pill I shouldn't take

Don't put your lips up to my mouth and tell me you can't stay
Don't slip your hand under my shirt and tell me it's okay
Don't say it doesn't mater cause it's gonna matter to me
I can't be alone with
You've got me out on the edge every time you call
And i know it would kill me if I fall
i can't be alone with you

I can't be alone with you

Don't put your lips up to my mouth and tell me you can't stay
Don't slip your hand under my shirt and tell me it's okay
Don't say you're gone love me cause you're gonna love me and leave
I can't be alone with
You've got me out on the edge every time you call
And i know it would kill me if I fall
I cant be alone with you

I don't see you laugh
You don't call me back
But you kiss me when you're drunk



It was a long weekend... Starting Wednesday (lol not really the weekend)

Wednesday was Halloween. I Dressed up as Robin Hood. I looked pretty steller if I do say so myself ...but you can be the judge...

That was the day My beloved Malibu (aka Mali) thought it would be fun not to start... At 9 pm I was given a ride home from the Boss Lady. Thursday I got I used my mom's car and drove back to Stoughton jumped my car after working and then managed to bring both cars back home. I went to a wake for a friends Dad then headed to town for a new battery and an oil filter and some oil. (I know you know this part) Friday I was back to work bright and early to work as the hostess for lunch and setting up the banquet hall and helping hostess for dinner getting down around 11 making it about 13 hours for the day. I got a beer and sat down at the bar just in time for Frosted Flacks to be sitting across the way. (I know my life is SUPER) being the bigger person I went over and said hi to him. But not before I slammed my beer and said good night to everyone else I wanted to talk to in the bar and was headed out when Mr Bigglesworth's newest roommate  started hitting on me.  After leaving he asked Mr Bigglesworth for my number and he of cores gave it to him  so he started texting me. Saturday we held a Halloween Party at the BBG so at 9 I was back at it putting up the fun stuff to make the BBG scary.  The I finished the banquet hall and and worked mixing drinks until around 11 then I changed into my Flapper Dress for Saturday night ... once again looking steller ... you be the judge... here I am with the Boss Lady..  She is a pirate. We both looked good.

The Mechanic showed up at the party and I had to drive him home.  The roommate said hello and went off to flirt with some other random girl (he ended up pulling a hat trick {3 different girl in the weekend} I was not one of them)  I gave my number to a guy that like to bowl (I am yet to hear from him) I stayed to help return the BBG to the way it was meant to look and was home by 4 am.  (remember day light savings time so it was really 5 am) and was back to work at 4 the next day to stay until 11:30 closing down the bar again. Then went up to give  Mr Bigglesworth  a ride home getting to bed around 2 am.  The as always we did Monday Funday and went out last night ... we had a blast I drank too much but am OK with it.  That brings me to today I slept until 1pm did the walk back to my car and went to the BBG for a few hours to take to the Boss Lady and the CBE.  Come home.  Voted with my family had dinner and talked to Best Friend #3.  Now its 9:20 and I'm writing for the world to know about my life because sometimes its like no one else cares.  2 of the 4 guys kissed me this weekend.  I won't give names on here... Not even fake ones.  Lets just say it was a really long weekend...  Guess thats all... Enjoy the photos and I'm sure you understand the song choice.  

Have Faith ...

Deuces ...

PS ~He who shall not be named has a new girlfriend...  Yesterday was both good and bad...

That's all

K*

I Go Back ~Kenny Chesney

Jack and Diane painted a picture of my life and my dreams
Suddenly this crazy world made more sense to me
Well, I heard it today and I couldn't help but sing along
'Cause every time I hear that song

An' I go back to a two toned short bed Chevy
Drivin' my first love out to the levy
Livin' life with no sense of time
An' I go back to the feel of a fifty yard line
A blanket, a girl, some raspberry wine
Wishin' time would stop right in its tracks

Every time I hear that song
I go back, I go back

I used to rock all night long to, "Keep On Rockin' Me Baby"
Frat parties, college bars, just tryin' to impress the ladies
Well, I heard it today and I couldn't help but sing along
'Cause every time I hear that song

An' I go back to the smell of an old gym floor
The taste of salt on the Carolina shore
After graduation and drinkin' goodbye to friends
And I go back to watchin' summer fade to fall
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/k/kenny-chesney-lyrics/i-go-back-lyrics.html ]
Growin' up too fast and I do recall
Wishin' time would stop right in its tracks

Every time I hear that song
I go back, I go back

We all have a song that somehow stamped our lives
Takes us to another place and time

So I go back to a pew, preacher, and a choir
Singin' 'bout God, brimstone, and fire
And the smell of Sunday chicken after church
And I go back to the loss of a real good friend
And the sixteen summers I shared with him
Now "Only The Good Die Young" stops me in my tracks

Every time I hear that song
I go back, I go back

To the feel of a fifty yard line
A blanket, a girl, some raspberry wine
I go back
(I go back)

To watchin' summer fade to fall
Growin' up too fast and I do recall
I go back
(I go back)

To the loss of a real good friend
And the sixteen summers I shared with him
I go back
(I go back)

I go back, I go back





I don't know what it is about music that can change my day... making is better or worse. I had a ok day today. I worked this morning, go my car running (another story for another day) then I had to go to a
visitation for a friends Dad. That is heart breaking. My friend is about 5 years older then me, but only 1 year older then my oldest sister. I can begin to know what him and his family are going though. Honestly I don't want to. Then I played on Facebook for a bit before heading to town to get some parts for my car to keep it running. And made two pit stops to see Best Friend #1 and #2 (named in no order) The music that played in my head or on the radio was not hand chosen that it mostly is in my life. Between my MP3 player on my phone, the CD player in my car and sticking a buck here and there in the Jukebox I pretty much hand pick my inner song for the day. But today I listened to the straight up radio. (New and different) So my inner song changed lots of times today. Mostly country but every now and then I should put on the "Pop" Chanel and get a little "Give your Heart a Break" but today the radio spoke to me more then normal. I heard a lot of older songs that took me right back to high school or shortly after and had a nice long day of remembering how easy my life use to be... Maybe I need a day of tears. Please don't take that as my tears fell all day. Its nothing like that ... but my eyes have been watery (for lack of a better word) After my shopping and visiting I grabbed a bit to ear and headed to home. After my drive though dinner my mom rolled my hair so it would be curly for work tomorrow. Some people might thing I "Husband hunting" (what single girl in her isn't) But its more for me. I'm feeling off lately and just need a day to do something to make Katie Jean feel more like a pretty pretty princess for a day. Even if it does involve working. I guess thats all tonight. I do however thing that some of you might feel the same way about music that I do. I can almost take me be to the place when that song found it meaning for me.


Have faith
Deuces


K*