Both Of Us ~B.o.B ft. Taylor Swift

[Taylor Swift - Chorus]
I wish I was strong enough to lift not one but both us
Someday I will be strong enough to lift not one but both of us

[B.o.B]
Ever thought about losing it?
When your money is all gone and you lose your whip
You might lose your grip
When the landlord tell you that you're due for rent
And the grass so green on the other side
Make a nigga wanna run straight through the fence
Open up the fridge about 20 times
But still can't find no food in it
That's foolishness
And sometimes I wonder
All we care so much about the way we look
And the way we talk, and the way we act
And the clothes we bought, how much that cost?
Does it even really matter?
Cuz if life is an uphill battle,
We all try to climb on the same old ladder
In the same boat with the same old paddle
Why so shallow, I'm just asking
What's the pattern to the madness?
Everybody in a #1 draft pick
Most of us aint Hollywood actors
But if it's all for one, and one for all
Then maybe one day we all can ball
Do it one time for the underdogs
Sincerely yours, from one of y'all

[Taylor Swift - Chorus]
I wish I was strong enough to lift not one but both us
Someday I will be strong enough to lift not one but both of us

[B.o.B]
I can feel your pain,
I can feel your struggle
You just want to live
But everything so low,
That you can drown in the puddle
That's why I gotta hold us up
Yeah hold us up
For all the times no one ever spoke for us
So every single time that they play this song
You can say that, "that's what Bobby Ray wrote for us"
When his eyes get too high
And the sea up underneath get so deep
And you feel like you're just another person
Getting lost in the crowd
Way up high in the nosebleeds (Uh)
Because we've both been there
Yeah both of us
But we still stand tall
With our shoulders up
And even though we always against the odds
These are the things that have molded us
And if life hadn't chosen us
Sometimes I wonder
Where I would have wound up
Cuz if it was up to me
I would make a new blueprint
Then build it from the ground up
Hey, but if its all for one
And One for all
Then maybe one day
We all could ball
Do it one time for the underdogs
From Bobby Ray to all of y'all

[Taylor Swift - Chorus]
I wish I was strong enough to lift not one but both us
Someday I will be strong enough to lift not one but both of us

Sometimes I fell like my life is falling apart at my feet and there is nothing I can do about it.  Now don't get me wrong I know that's not true I have a job I love a roof over my head and food in my belly.  I am truly a lucky person.  I also sometimes like I have the whole world on my shoulders (or maybe my sore wrist) I work 6 days a week and still try to find time to hang out with my friends and family (and fail most of the time) I do like Monday nights with my BBG BFF, her stalker and Mr. Bigglesworth.  I like my Tuesdays off.  Even is I don't leave my house it's my day and it makes me happy to have a day that is all about me.  Wednesday's a I work a split shift.  10-2 4-close.  Sometimes close means the bar not the kitchen.  But I'm ok with that.  I need the money.  Thursdays Fridays Saturday Sunday I work.  Lots of split shifts.  Not all the time but lots of them.  The schedule that was posted today has me working Monday night, Tuesday off Wednesday split Thursday Day Fridays Day till question (we have a banquet on Saturday)  The Saturday I have to finish setting up the hall in the morning and I'm barterer then, and we'll wrap it up with a split shift on Sunday - Funday for a packer game.  Please don't misunderstand this (I will put this plainly) ... I LOVE MY JOB.  I would work there forever if I could.  I am not complaining about my job or how many hours that I work.  I don't wish for more hours in the day or anything stupid like that.  I am happy... its just sometimes I see happy couples together and it make s me lonely.  But then I wonder what my Mr. Right would like about my job and hours and everything else that I do that I don't know if I boyfriend would like.  See I have a no real references... Number 1 and I were children...  Number 2 had another girl the whole time he was with me ...Number 3 was He Who Shall Not Be Named and 7 years later I woke to find out that I was not anywhere near happy and he didn't treat me the way I should be treated and didn't love me the way I needed to be loved. Number 4 fell hard and fast and would have jumped in front of a train for me.  He was a sweet guy but I didn't feel the same for him as he felt for me.  (Champ sorry if you do not agree with me one this one) So I don't know if working in a bar long hours and getting hit on by two or three guys a day is really the best was to start a new love story.  It has not worked for me this far that's for damn sure... Between Mr. Doughtful and Frosted Flakes and The Farmer and the guy how has left me his number 3 different times.  It just doesn't seam to be my time.  But that might be a good thing because I am not willing to change me job for some random guy that doesn't like what I do for a living.  End rant...

That might be all for the night I guess... I posted the video this week and I think I will go back and add the video's to the old post...

Remember to have faith 

Deuces

Mean ~ Taylor Swift

You, with your words like knives and swords and weapons that you use against me
You have knocked me off my feet again got me feeling like I'm nothing
You, with your voice like nails on a chalkboard, calling me out when I'm wounded
You, pickin' on the weaker man
Well, you can take me down with just one single blow
But you don't know what you don't know

Someday I'll be living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?

You, with your switching sides and your walk-by lies and your humiliation
You, have pointed out my flaws again as if I don't already see them
I'll walk with my head down trying to block you out 'cause I'll never impress you
I just wanna feel okay again

I'll bet you got pushed around, somebody made you cold
But the cycle ends right now 'cause you can't lead me down that road
And you don't know what you don't know

Someday I'll be living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?

And I can see you years from now in a bar, talking over a football game
With that same big loud opinion but nobody's listening
Washed up and ranting about the same old bitter things
Drunk and grumbling on about how I can't sing

But all you are is mean

All you are is mean and a liar and pathetic and alone in life
And mean, and mean, and mean, and mean

But someday I'll be living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean, yeah
Someday, I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?

Someday, I'll be, living in a big old city
(Why you gotta be so mean?)
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
(Why you gotta be so mean?)
Someday, I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
(Why you gotta be so mean?)
And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?

Ok so I'm upset if you can't tell ...
So
Lets start with Mr. Doubtful ...
First I ask him more then once to be straight with me about who he feels and he tell me nothing ... I went out with my friends to a bar or two, and had a drink or fourteenish the more I drank I started texting him giving him an all out pass to tell me anything and he did openly... things that I did want to know and things that I didn't. ( I want to get married and have kids he does not.) So he told me that he kinda likes me but we want different things out of life so he didn't see us working out. I took that well because at least he was telling me something. Then in a TEXT message he told me that he had or has a "crush" on best friend #3. Then he told me that he wants to stay friends and we should still hang out. He was very sorry to tell me the way he did, he was going to tell me Friday night but we were having so much fun together he didn't want to wreck things. Whatever. Then he showed up where I work the next day and acted like nothing happened. Being me I got
over it easily and we stated being just friends. We played pool and he acted like a small child. I once again forgave him for being silly and wrote it off as we changing our relationship to just friends. Things got better as we got more use to being friends and nothing more. Enter Frosted Flakes my new friend

One random Monday night my BBG BFF's family came in with some friends of papa's work (her papa not mine) and there was this super cute guy Frosted Flakes. I asked her if he was single after finding out that he was. I may or may not have flirted with him. My Boss who is the coolest boss ever (he will be known as CBE) thought it would be a good plan for me to have a beer or four and a shot or six. So Frosted Flakes and I were talking, we shot some pool with the bet being if he beat me he got my phone number. I do play pool ... badly so naturally he got my phone number. We may or may not have shared a kiss or two he may or may not have walked to my BBG BFF's house to sleep then may or may not have picked me up and took me back to my car. Because we left and came back together rumors spread. I was not the happiest about this but I knew nothing would change it so I just knew that is wasn't true so it's whatever. Mr Doubtful heard the rumors and proceeded to call me a whore. needless to day we are not friends anymore. So Frosted Flakes took me to lunch Wednesday we texed everyday here and there for two weeks. We had dinner together on Thursday the next week and made plans to hang out soon and watch a movie. Monday he broke the plans because he was too tired. I can deal with that because he works funny hours sometimes. Wednesday he broke our plans because he was too tired. And proceeded to break our plans for tonight because he was going home for a birthday party for his dad. Don't get me wrong family is SUPER imported so I can't fault him for that but I was upset that he made the planes with me in the first place. OH and that's not even getting into that his X is somehow causing drama where he works somehow ... another story for a another day.

I would like to also say that Mr. Its the Little Things (remember he is someone that Best Friend #3 was talking to) SUCKS thats all I'm going to say about that but know that he is a LOSER who thinks he is the coolest guy and God's gift to woman but he is NOT. He is a jerk and I hope bad things on him like jail time or something. Maybe something even worst if I could think of it

I feel a very small amount better now... Thanks for reading

That's all

Remember to have Faith
Deuces