Who Says you can't go home~ Bon Jovi

I spent 20 years trying to get out of this place
I was lookin' for something I couldn't replace
I was runnin' away from the only thing I've ever known

And like a blind dog without a bone

I was a gypsy lost in the twilight zone
I hijacked a rainbow and crashed into a pot of gold

I've been there, done that, I ain't lookin' back
The seeds I've sown, saving dimes, spending too much time on the telephone
Who says you can't go home

Who says you can't go home
There's only one place they call me one of their own
Just a hometown boy, born a Rolling Stone
Who says you can't go home
Who says you can't go back, been all around the world and as a matter of fact
There's only one place left I want to go

Who says you can't go home

It's alright, it's alright, it's alright, it's alright, it's alright

I went as far as I could, I tried to find a new face
There isn't one of these lines that I would erase
I left a million miles of memories on that road

And every step I take, I know that I'm not alone
You take the home from the boy, but not the boy from his home
These are my streets, the only life I've ever known
Who says you can't go home

Who says you can't go home
There's only one place they call me one of their own
Just a hometown boy, born a Rolling Stone
Who says you can't go home
Who says you can't go back, been all around the world and as a matter of fact
There's only one place left I want to go
Who says you can't go home

I've been there, done that, I ain't lookin' back
It's been a long, long road
Feels like I never left, that's how the story goes

It doesn't matter where you are, doesn't matter where you go
If it's a million miles aways or just a mile up the road
Take it in, take it with you when you go
Who says you can't go home

Who says you can't go back, been all around the world and as a matter of fact
There's only one place left I want to go
Who says you can't go home
It's alright, it's alright, it's alright, it's alright,it's alright
Who says you can't go home
It's alright, it's alright, it's alright, it's alright,it's alright
Who says you can't go home
It's alright, it's alright, it's alright, it's alright.it's alright
Who says you can't go home




Well people out there that are reading this...

KATIE'S COMING HOME!!

Christmas day I am moving back to WI. I can't wait. I know it will be hard to start over again. But I also know that I have the friends and family that I need to do it. Most of my Christmas gifts are bough or started. I am making some of them this year. I don't really know what people will think of them but I'm ok with it.

Being down here has led me closer to me. I know more about myself then I ever thought I would. I now know that I am stronger then I thought I was. Also that i don't need a man or anyone else in my life to get by. Even if I have to work three jobs I will be able to stand on my own two feet. It's crazy to me... there are people out there that can find a job and in Indy I had to quite two of them. I have been looking at jobs on line at home and there are plenty out there.

Its time of bed for this little girl I just wanted to spreed the word!!

ALMOST HOME!!

Have Faith

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Rumor Has it/Someone like You ~gLee

She, she ain't real

She ain't gonna be able to love like I will

She is a stranger

You and I have history

Or don't you remember?

Sure, she's got it all

But, baby, is that really what you want?

Bless your soul

You've got your head in the clouds

You made a fool out of you

And, boy, she's bringing you down

She made your heart melt

But you're cold to the core

Now rumor has it she ain't got your love anymore

Rumor has it (Rumor) [x8]
"Don't forget me, I beg"I remember you said
I heard that you settled down

That you found a gir

lAnd you're married now
I heard that your dreams came true

Guess she gave you things

I didn't give to you
Rumor has it (Rumor) [x8]
"Don't forget me, I beg"

I remember you said
Bless your soul

You've got your head in the clouds

You made a fool out of me

And, boy, you're bringing me down

You made my heart melt 

Yet I'm cold to the core

But rumor has it I'm the one you're leaving her for
Rumor has it (Rumor) [x8]
"Don't forget me, I beg"

I remember you said
"Don't forget me, I beg"

I remember you said
Never mind, I'll find

Someone like you

I wish nothing but the best for you
"Don't forget me, I beg"

I remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love

But sometimes it hurts instead
Sometimes it lasts in love

But sometimes it hurts instead

Why is it that sometimes life is no fun. Like in this song. The girls are all kinds of upset. Happy thanksgiving to everyone out there in blogger world. Today I went back to work after my 6 days off. Let me tell ya 8 hours has never taken so long. When I got home I sat down to smoke. I do that. Then I got yelled at for it. The when I came in to the house and pick in the turkey bones Got yelled at for that too. OK so I know you people out there don't know my family but we yell at each other. So I of cores thought it was more of a joke then anything else, so I keep doing it. It only led to tears from 2 of the three sisters counting myself. Sister #2 took a nap and didn't eat with us. She was sleepy. I eat and then went to sleep after lunch. I was sleepy. Now the 4 C's 4 J's and the T are at a water park about 30 min from home and I am enjoying the peace and quite of a empty house for the first time in I don't even know why long.
I think I'll take my beer and watch a movie. Sounds like a perfect Thanksgiving to me!!

Have Faith
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K*

The Strength to go on~ Rise Against

Welcome home
While away
They have tampered with the locks
And your things they rearranged
"We propose,
A better way"
Said the note they left behind
In their wake of disarray

You fell in place
Don't fall asleep
They'll find us here
I know a place
To disappear
As a voice proclaimed

What we are is the sum of a thousand lies
What we know is almost nothing at all
But we are what we are 'till the day we die
Or 'till we don't have the strength to go on
'Till we don't have the strength to go on

Let us cry
Let us be
Let us open up our hearts
Without fear of anything
Faith alone's
All we need
To traverse this burning bridge
Now before it gets too late

You claim, "it's fine"
But the heart reveals
What smiles betray
Your sad sad eyes
Gave you away
And don't you know

What we are is the sum of a thousand lies
What we know is almost nothing at all
But we are what we are 'till the day we die
Or 'till we don't have the strength to go on
'Till we don't have the strength to go on

Our shoulders bear an awful weight
But still we trudge on just the same
Our colors run then leave a stain
They blacken our once honest name
How can we argue, tell me
Over the fury and the fire
How many times can we tell you that we
Are not like you, we see right through
The poor disguise that fails to fool
The wary eye is trained on you

What we are is the sum of a thousand lies
What we know is almost nothing at all
But we are what we are 'till the day we die
Or 'till we don't have the strength to go on
'Till we don't have the strength to go on

What we are is the sum of a thousand lies
What we know is almost nothing at all
But we are what we are 'till the day we die
Or 'till we don't have the strength to go on
'Till we don't have the strength to go on

Today is The Champs 21st birthday!! We went gambling it was very fun. It was The Champ and his dad. The coach and his cousin. I haven't given him a nic-name yet so well just call him Max (i don't know why but the boys call him that.)

The Champs Dad and I left a head, the other boys didn't. After that Dad and I dropped the boys of at the Bowling center we work at and I went to get the other car. By the time I got back to the center The Champ was on shot like 7. Not big deal. We were joined then but The Creeper, Piggie, Boss Lady, Boss Man and some other people that are at the Center a lot. I didn't drink a drop but didn't need to, to have a good time. I don't even have word for how much fun I had tonight. It remained me of my 21st. A really good night. Lots if drinking happened that night by pretty much all. Life seamed much easier when your only turning 21. For every shot The Champ too I put a tick mark on his arm. He didn't make it to 21 only 16 but he did also drink 6 mixed drinks so I think he did pretty good. I think a good time was had by all and even after buying 4 shots tonight I'm still up for the day.

The song choice today is one of The Champs favorites. A song that he played for me and helped to to fall in love with as well.

Its well past Midnight here in Jasper. All of the boys are bond to be sleeping and its no longer The Champs birthday but I wanted to share with the world my great 'yesterday' was and this just seamed fitting.

So Happy Birthday Champ I hope it was a good one!

Have Faith
Deuces

K*

Here I am lord

I, the Lord of sea and sky,
I have heard my people cry.
All who dwell in dark and sin,
My hand will save.
I, who made the stars of night,
I will make their darkness bright.
Who will bear my light to them?
Whom shall I send?

Here I am, Lord.

Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.

I, the Lord of snow and rain,
I have borne my people's pain.
I have wept for love of them.
They turn away.
I will break their hearts of stone,
Give them hearts for love alone.
I will speak my words to them.
Whom shall I send?

(Refrain)

I, the Lord of wind and flame,
I will send the poor and lame.
I will set a feast for them.
My hand will save.
Finest bread I will provide,
'Til their hearts be satisfied.
I will give my life to them.
Whom shall I send?


Today is Sunday. For the first time in I don't even know how long I was up in time to dress nicely and go to church with my little IN family. I do remember the last time I went to church. I was with The Champ and His family on Easter Morning. My sister is a active member are the Shiloh church here in Jasper. She finds great happiness in her church family. Mind you I said family not friends. This church is a family. I have seen them celebrate and morn together. Eat and fast. Smile and Cry. I am not a member but on Wednesday I look foreword to two thing. Bowling (my name will be in the Jasper newspaper this week because I bowled so good lost week) and TGIW. The church has a bible study and things of that sort on Wednesday. But before that they have a dinner. Its almost always amazing. I can't lie they use too meany veggies but they do make good fillers in a chicken pot-pie. I take my self for two reasons Sister #2 works there and I have to leave after to bowl and my family stays. It gives me great joy to walk into the church and down to the life center and see Sister # 2's  family. Not like I am her family with the whole blood and stuff but there Christ family. They are so good to her for the most part and I don't know what she would do without them. It still being November and all I just wanted to say that today and everyday I am thankful the My Sister #2  has both of her familys. We all know that the next time I got to church to pray will be Christmas and it will more then likely be at St. Joe's but for Sister #2 to have such amazing for family to be with here when my family cant be... I know that my sister as is the rest of my family is truly blesses.

The song that is posted today is not a song that we sang today. It is however the only hymn that I remembered word for word the first time I even heard it. The song "moved" me if you will. I thought I was a good choice for the day with the way that my post was going to be headed.

Good bless you all and have a Happy Thanksgiving

Have Faith

Deuces 

Get Rhythm ~ Johnny Cash

Hey, get rhythm when you get the blues
Hey, get rhythm when you get the blues
Yes a jumpy rhythm makes you feel so fine
It'll shake all the trouble from your worried mind
Get rhythm when you get the blues

Little shoeshine boy never gets low down
But he's got the dirtiest job in town
Bendin' low at the peoples' feet
On the windy corner of the dirty street
Well, I asked him while he shined my shoes
How'd he keep from gettin' the blues
He grinned as he raised his little head
Popped a shoeshine rag and then he said

Get rhythm when you get the blues
Hey, get rhythm when you get the blues
It only costs a dime, just a nickel a shoe
Does a million dollars worth of good for you
Get rhythm when you get the blues

Well, I sat down to listen to the shoeshine boy
And I thought I was gonna jump for joy
Slapped on the shoe polish left and right
He took a shoeshine rag and he held it tight
He stopped once to wipe the sweat away
I said you're a mighty little boy to be-a workin' that way
He said I like it with a big wide grin
Kept on a poppin' and he said again

Get rhythm when you get the blues
Hey, get rhythm when you get the blues
Get a rock 'n' roll feelin' in your bones
Get taps on your toes and get gone
Get rhythm when you get the blues

Today was a good day with a great song in my head. I don't know what is it about a good Johnny Cash song that helps me get through the day. I worked this morning at St. Charles then spend sometime with The Coach. We just chilled and talked some. Sometimes you just need that. (he will be upset that the song that he was brought the first time with is country but I'm ok with it)

After then I went to a buddys house to clean it for him. I washed all the sheets cleaned some windows and scrubbed the bathtub and the shower. I but with some wonderful country songs playing in the background where can you go wrong?

I'm having lunch and watching a movie with The Champ after work tomorrow then I'll go back and clean some more. I know what your thinking... why do that even if he is paying you there must be something better for you to do. Honestly I would be napping or sitting around if I wasn't there. It gets me out of my house and gives me something to do. So once again I'm ok with it.

I try to keep busy. The busier I am and the more sleepy I get the more likely I am to sleep through the night.

In 10 days time two of my friends will be here. We are going to see Breaking Dawn the midnight showing naturally. I can't wait and from the sounds of it they feel the same way.
Bride #6 is the one who made me fall in love with Twilight if the place. How could I watch this without her??? I mean come on really.

That maybe all for the night I still have to eat some supper and it almost 8:30. Plus side its Tuesday so the means The Sons are on, HAPPY DAY!!!

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I'll Be~ Edwin McCain

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath.
And emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth.
Tell me that we belong together,
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above.

[Chorus]
I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.

And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed.
You're my survival, you're my living proof.
My love is alive -- not dead.
Tell me that we belong together.
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

[Chorus]
And I've dropped out, I've burned up, I've fought my way back from the dead.
I've tuned in, turned on, remembered the things that you said

[Chorus:]

I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your...
I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide

I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.
The greatest fan of your life.
...greatest fan of your life.










I was out until after 3:30 this morning. When I got home I felt like I had to sneak into the house so I wouldn't wake anyone up. After getting ready for be I simply laid there thinking about everything that had happened thought-out the day. Getting to sleep in. Making $7.00 in tips (that huge when your a barterer at a bowling center and from 1-5 we only ran like 6 lanes) The coming home to work on my book. Having dinner with my family. Writing some more then getting picked up by the Champ. We have been spending so a lot of time together. Hes a supper kid. I don't know if "kid" is the right word.
He had a good foot in height on me but hes only 20 until 2 weeks from today. The Champ has turned out to be one of the best friends I could have asked for and i didn't even have to ask. My inner song today had a line in it that makes me think of him  "The Greatest Fan Of Your Life" The Champ would have been a good cheerleader in high school. When he believes in something there is a spirit in his eyes that can't be miss read. He maybe my biggest fan. Some days the only one I need,
Last year Sister #2 did a thing every week in November letting the world know who or what she was thankful for. I guess I'm stating out a week late. Better late then never right,
But here I go. I am thankful for my friends, all of them but right now I am thankful for The Champ!

Have Faith 

Deuces 

From where you are~ lifehouse

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you Yeah I miss you

So far away from where you are
I'm standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things 

I never thought that they'd mean everything to me
Yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here

I feel the beating of your heart
I see the shadows of your face
Just know that wherever you are
Yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me
Yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you, yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here


Today and honestly for a bit I've been very home sick. Most of the time I'm pretty good and hiding it. But lately its been getting to be too much. Writing helps. I think its mostly because I can slip away into a world that isn't really and that I'm completely in control of. There are times when I feel someone else is running my life and I just along for the ride. I can't lie there are days that I would be OK with that.

For some reason I have to pull north. I want nothing more then the be sitting at my moms kitchen table knowing that my dad will be home soon out of the corn field for the night, or sitting on the porch at my sisters house 'randomly' drinking a beer with a cigarette and a good book. Maybe having a movie night with my musketeers. I mean honestly there isn't much better then a Sun Drop and popcorn night with your girl friends.    

What is that "they" say 'This too shall Pass' 'Hold your head up and push on' you know all the old saying that "they" say. Whoever "they" are sometimes they got their stuff down and they are right. But there are those other time.... grrr man grrr

Tonight is going to be a long one. I've got fun plans with a good friend!

Have Faith
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